Each Repeated Reading of the Gita, Things Become More Clear

By : 
Bhakta David

Dear Sridhara-syama dasa
Please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I am very happy and encouraged by your letter received today. This time of lockdown is challenging such that there is no movement from our cells. Food is scarce and showers only every few days. I was concerned at the outset that you might make an empty trip and wanted some way to notify you but certainly by now you know to call before coming to this unpredictable place.

By the mercy of Krsna, the timing of the last set of books you brought was most fortunate and I have been able to read Srimad-Bhagavatam, Teachings of Lord Kapila and Nectar of Devotion. I have read each of them more than twice (except Nectar of Devotion which have found to be on an entire other level). I readily admit that I might sit with these texts along with the Bhagavad-Gita an entire lifetime and not fully understand their transcendental message. But I am wholeheartedly trying. It will take time to overcome some of the barriers of culture (names & places) and primacy of belief, that being all the ‘stuff’ I’ve been told since childhood. I am so very blessed by being at the perfect place and time to not only receive this information, but by the mercy of Krsna to have a qualified teacher and spiritual guide to show the way. When I first began my study, I did not understand the importance. It is now very clear to me why this information must be learned from disciplic succession. Each day, and often, I give thankful praise to Krsna and His boundless mercy for the provision of your devotional service. So many improbably and unexpected happenings to have brought this opportunity.

I immediately smiled when I recognized your letter today. I actually began a letter to you at the end of last week with the goal of positing some questions for clarification. After about the first page, I reviewed the note only to declare “Even I can’t understand my own question!”. So I abandoned the idea and sat down to do more chanting which is my go-to solution when I am confused, which is often I assure you.

My background is in the medical sciences and as professor for some years I am not used to being unable to articulate my questions. But with each repeated reading of the Gita, things become a bit more clear and even the Sanskrit sounds beautiful.

Know that I will pray for you as you ask and request you do the same for me specifically that His Truth will be revealed to me and the innate capacity for devotional service will be fully awakened. I very much look forward to our next meeting and will communicate what you asked to the others to the best of my ability.

Most Respectfully yours,
David